MuSiC oF mY LiFe

~~Saturday, April 02, 2005~~

Ahhh...wad a nice feelin to b able to blog wif less guilt again. Exams over today. Darn it shld've been over man long ago man! =P Let's review a lil' 'bout it 1st. Hek. [tis blog will b kinda long]

CB- Ok lar. generally can do. But so dumb to even choose e wrong qn. ha. Could've done an easier qn tt most pple did, which is on cell cycle...(givaway lor)...and me, being e smart arse, did e qn on DNA replic. and protein synthesis stuff on e back chaps which i m not familiar wif. ha. dun ask y, jus dumb. oh, and a 1 guy keep blowing his nose so loud & long tt i cant conc...haha..=S

OBC- ha. was easier than expected. personal opinion, set to allow us to pass e module decently. haha. dun bash me but tt's hw i felt. but den again, my chem isn't v strong so wadeva. haha.

Physio- easier than expected too. haha. shld say i haf got abit of luck there. I was desperate alr cos nothin was in my head..so i jus sorta analyse qns abit n picked topics n parts to study and left out e rest. haha. so its lyk a bull's eye or a goner case. haha. So i shld say i did it wif skill and quite alot i picked came out. haha. Was still worryin in e morn cos i onli remb so little. =X hah. But being e usual blur me, i can do e questions happily and be4 i knew it, my eyes skipped 2qns worth abt 6-8m! So careless! Din c! haha..diaoz..only aft i finished e paper, den i look thru e qns once den i saw it...den quickly scribble some stuffs. haha. wanted to stay thru' out e 2hr paper, but it was too cold inside..Brr..haha..so left early.

Anyway, after tis exams, learnt a few lessons. 1, dun wait till last min to study for exams. 2, dun b complacent(learnt tis many times..) 3, i cant handle stress well...wahaha. will jus panick and prance ard my rm and jus get restless. haha...now, there's another substitute, u all shld noe it, e guitar. haha..jus a tool to get some private moment. haha. Anywayz, e exams r over, regardless hw bad it is, e ans cant b changed and e marks will soon b set, so i'll jus hafta pray for e best. haha. Results gonna be out by 21/4/05. Be on a lookout! hahaz.

let's c, aft sch went to meet fren at mac as planned. Stayed till ard 2. Den i wanna go hm 1st cos wana refresh myself be4 meetin JJ in town. So cabbed wif her n she dropped me off near my hse. haha. den soon aft, JJ called n i took a bus down to suntec..haha..went to eat...yumyumz.. and watch son of e mask..lame show...dun go watch...waste of $, provided if u've got extra to spare..ha..nah..better option: gimme e $, i'll spend it wisely 4 ya. haha. Den slack ard, and went hm..haha.

sometimes its really quite frustrating if ur parents jus throw tons of responsibility on u and ask u to shoulder it isn't it? U might b e youngest family member, but now ur parents jus say it in such a way tt every single tink u do u haf to think about everyone in e family. Lyk hw issit really related sia...even u making simple decisions matters to e whole family? wad is tis sia? Haiz, mum jus threw loads of it on me. told me i haf lots to take care of, lots to work on for e family. Diao. Yes, parents will be parents..i noe..but its darn abit too annoyin yeh? getting grades orientated too..again..wad the...i m not some silly ass who can study all day n score beautifully for dem to c. I believe in moderation, in relaxation and doing things by gut. Even if it means it my grades are suffering n nt in tinking rite (or shall i simply put as i m not tinking e way u wan me to?)...somehw..yeah...but tt's nt e pt. I m a perfectionist at heart but i jus cant summon e energy alrite? wadeva... HAH. Cancerians are so prone to acting rashly cos we are so controlled by emotions, so dun ask me to tink rationally wif responsibility ALL e time. will get sick of it. haha..weird, to some pple, tis might b a form of moltivation n authority cos it makes dem feel significant in e family. Its a chance for dem to prove their place in it. But nah, doesn't apply to me at this point of time at least, i m too messed up. haha.

Ever caught urself in a scenario whereby u haf a fren whom u tot u always had a connection wif all the while suddenly tell u 1 day tt, "hey, i realized tt we r actually really v different pple." And for that moment, it didn't feel good at all. haha..i duno..think its quite disappointing somehow...becos its not as if there's not enuff understanding between both parties but the main reason being becos its either u've changed, he/she's changed or both of u. haha. We tend to change over time...pple we meet, tinks we do and individual experiences made us who we are now or least at any moment in time..and if things changes tear r/s between frenz/loved ones its quite a sad case. pple always say we accept others for who they r, but hw many really mean wad they say? And if u've always tot tt u two hav a common link tt made tis r/s special, den suddenly u realized tt its all been a kinda 1-sided. Hmmz. Haha..wad a pity.

WADEVA..jus some tots tt crossed my mind. Maybe not b of direct relevance to me tho'...hahha..tml will b in sch again. for drama rehearsal for m'sia trip and for guitar pract[yeah!]. haha...will reach sch at 12.30pm..yeah...so cya..!

*its hurting a tiny winsy lil' bit jus to even make it pass, but i'll try or...wait. We'll c.*

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